Cry me a river

Boohoo, more project group trouble. They're all very nice people and I really like this company idea we have (though I have absolutely no idea what a beauty parlor has to do with the tourism branch), but some people really need to calm down a little. Seriously, woman, we can't help you start on this stuff with such haste that you want to finish it next week. We also can't help the fact that you've decided to assign so many tasks to yourself that it almost looks like the rest of us are doing nothing at all. And really, I don't think you have the right to get THIS angry at me for not finishing the financial plan when you haven't even bothered to send me the e-mail with the information. If you're being so responsible and great, you should have been sure I actually received the e-mail so I could get to work. But wait, you can't, can you? Because you haven't even BOTHERED to ASK for my e-mail address. And if you don't say anything, how am I supposed to know I was supposed to receive an e-mail? Right. I'm going to get started on the financial plan today, like the official school planner says, and you're going to receive it when it's DONE. And I personally think you'll probably agree with me that it's better to wait a day or two longer for it than for me to finish this with haste, making the quality go backwards.

So much frustration on school, blegh. It almost makes you wonder if it's even worth it. But then when I sit in Law class and it's all interesting and useful to know, it makes me happy again. Talking about Law class, we suddenly had a pop quiz. That was a bit of a nasty surprise, since I've only attended one working class and two lectures. Not by personal choice, mind you, the first time I was ill (surprise, two infections) and the second time the train didn't show up. But nevertheless, the test was relatively easy and I'm curious about the results.

Haha, one of the questions was funny. It asked what type of law was involved in the case: Henk votes for the VVD. I encircled the right answer (I hope), but wrote something next to it:

"Henk is a loser, thanks Henk! >:C"

I'm so funny.

I couldn't have bought my new boots at a better time of the year. Oh my gosh, it's so insanely cold! When I got downstairs this morning it was only 16 degrees in the living room. When it's 16 degrees outside, you put on a COAT. So, whether there was going to be whining and nagging or not, I turned on the central heating. Brrr! And it's not one bit better outside. Ah, the positive side of it is that it wakes me up a bit when switching trains in Deventer.

Ahh, tomorrow. There is going to be a long, long, long train trip... Why isn't Maastricht a bit closer? But it's probably going to be worth it, sleepovers with the Kezen is always a lot of fun, and they're probably even better in a really pretty city. I could really use the social interactions! 

I have to go to the dietitian again on Wednesday and I'm not really sure she and I will be satisfied with what we'll see. It's been a really horrible month. First there was my sister's birthday so you eat everything that's forbidden, and then when you've eaten bad stuff you're like "Pff, what does it matter, I might as well continue with it", and then I got pretty sick for 1,5 week... Bluh. But at least I'm doing well again, and I think the dietitian will probably understand that everyone sometimes has a bad month. Right........?!

Do not want!

Dear Microsoft,

What is this fuckery?! There is a reason I refused to install your fancy new Windows Live Messenger, you know? Not everyone is very interested in flashy and in-your-face designs, some people just want to use MSN to chat and do other simple things. Why do I first have to delete fifty billion useless bars, flashing updates and stupid add-ons before my messenger feels a bit usable? Why do the avatars suddenly have to stand on the left, with ugly green-orange-red coloured borders? What was wrong with having them on the right? Why can I no longer put my status on 'out to lunch' or 'on the phone'? I can put my status on 'busy' or 'away' now but people have no idea for how long that is! And then why is 'busy' red and 'away' orange? Orange gives me the impression of "Well, I'm sort of here, I'm not giving you the green light to talk to me but I'll answer slowly because I'm busy." while red tells me "I'M NOT HERE. DO NOT TALK TO ME. RED LIGHT. DO NOT WANT." And why do all my texts appear below each other in stead of separated? Now it's just one big block of text. And why do I first get 'pictures', 'activities', 'files', 'games', and all those sort of shit and are 'invite' and 'block' hidden in a drop-out menu? Aren't those functions much more important in a conversation?

And the most ridiculous part of this all: why, WHY do you FORCE me to download your latest fancy 13-year-old MysSpace-freak version of MSN Messenger?! There are computers that aren't even compatible with this bullshittery version, like my mum's pre-historical computer. What, is she no longer allowed to be online because she's not 'modern' enough? BULL. CRAP. OF. THE. CENTURY.

Greetings,

- A user who does know about usability and you obviously don't.

Ha, you thought you were rid of the ranting, were you now dear readers? No, it's never done with me. NEVER. Today I had to go to the hospital to have a x-ray of my stomach done. First they sent me to the wrong section because I thought I had to get an echo. Confusing! When I finally arrived at the right spot, I had to get completely undressed o_o' After having confirmed there was no way I could be pregnant (unless I'm a Holy Virgin) my stomach got radiated with radioactive rays and other unhealthy crap I was was gone within five minutes. And I had to miss an entire damn day of school for that! Friday I'll get the results of the x-ray and the blood test. If I happen to have a food allergy, I'm going to throw a hissy fit. Seriously.

Abunai this weekend!

- Elmida

Cool Story, Bro!

And so far I have survived my first week robbed of the free time I used to have. Even though I now have to get up at 5:00 AM in the morning and spend more time in public traffic than anywhere else, I can't say I dislike it. So far I am in complete awe about the complete amazingness of the History minor. So many nerdy facts I've learnt! It pleases me to know that I can bore the people around me with even more senseless facts :3 I think that if it stays this awesome I will get a humongous dilemma because I'm afraid I like History better than English. Meh!

Since a while I see a shrink and some other therapie called 'haptonomie' which really help me get my confidence in order. Ever since I started going there I feel quite a bit better and have a lot more energy to do things because now I can go to sleep without getting immense panic attacks. Unfortunately I think I need to see another professional; a dietician. Yes, I am overweight and I have to and want to do something about it but it's very complicated. I take ~1000 calories a day where I should be taking 1400. I seriously can't bring myself to eat more unless I want my stomach to explode like the USS Enterprise after an enemy attack and unless I spend 24/7 in the fast food restaurant I won't name because the thought of the trademark clown scared the shizzle out of me. And also, everytime I eat something with grains (bread or pasties or what) my stomach gets upset af if I've just eaten green eggs and blue ham.

And you, person who doesn't know he's the one I'm talking to, how dare you seduce me unintentionally?! After I've finally gotten over the whole stuff, how dare you keep me awake at night and make me daydream all day? GRRRR!

- Elmida

Historia Magistra Vitae Est

Ha, what a fancy way to start a blog. This quote (by Cicero according to Wikipedia) was found at the bottom of the History minor's reader and since I'm a Latinphile... Why not! A cookie for anyone who guesses it's meaning. Hint: Google.

Today was my first day back in school and it was as if I had never left. Getting up at bloody 5:00 AM in the morning is still a pain in my oversized arse, I still park my bicycle at the same spot, it still takes ten minutes to cross the road in order to get to the bus stop and risk to miss it and I still get nauseous in the bus while reading the newspaper. Now I think of it, I forgot to read my horoscope this morning. Oh. MY. Lord. Tradition c-c-c-c-combo breaker!

At the train station I met two of my classmates who joined me on the History minor. It was nice to not have to arrive in awkward silence because I didn't know anyone. But then again, I'm so amazing and charming that I would have easily gathered a new posse around me, naturally. The class itself was quite nice, though the teacher was a dork and all the information we got was a bit too shallow for what I wanted to learn. But hey, it was the first lesson and very obviously also this teacher's first time teaching. The poor thing. How will he ever deal with those devious and those 'bijdehande' HBO students? To be continued.

And last but not least; a rant. I want new mangas! And yes, you perverts, you all know what kind of mangas I prefer. The nasty thing is that I can't buy them in the regular manga store (fuck you, Comicasa, you do sell that -other gender-) so I'm limited to the twice-a-year conventions. It so happens that there is a convention in two weeks I'm going to, but these kind of actions sort of make me feel like I'm buying something illegal .____.

Also, I want a boy/girlfriend. Nao. You can apply for it through my e-mail. I am not responsible for any harm done, either physically or mentally. Or financially, teehee.

- Elmida

EDIT: Oh gosh! I have been granted with time-travelling abilities! According to blogger.com, I posted this blog at 12:04 while it's obviously 21:37 in Hollanda...